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1- frozen.

...I’d like you to make yourself comfortable and we’ll begin…

“Do I know you?” She asks the man standing in her door, looking like he’s seen her before.

...the secret... through the rubble for survivors… the patient is an attractive young...

“Of course you do,” he says, “We used to be the greatest. You and I were going to be famous”

...a result of an... being unable to maintain a stable sense of self worth...

Well, he must be wrong; she’s been alone for ages. Ever since the earthquake, he was waiting for an invitation.

 

“Won’t you stay a while?

...the world as we know it or just a hoax...

Tell me what you mean to me.”

It was you.

So he took a seat and stared at the ground for a long time.

It was you.

...what does he mean when he says words...

“What you think is real has been manipulated. The world was never shaking.

...all reports of disturbance are false...

It’s been your mind that’s breaking apart.

It was you

It’s been your mind that’s breaking.

It was you

...nothing has changed... having just parted ways...

To protect you from yourself, this is just a simulation.”

...with the love of her life... it has always been this way...

This is just a simulation.

 

2- if only you were better.

 

Here we are, broke down, dividing by zero.

How’d we get here?

These days are cold nights,

starting and ending in rain.

 

“This would all fade away if only,

if only you were better. If only you were better.”

 

These days are cold nights,

starting and ending in rain.

Here we are at sunset, something’s getting better.

Listen to your heartbeat beat faster.

 

“This would all fade away, if only

this would all fade away. If only you were better.”

 

Why are the words you say

still all I hear every day?

3- machine, learning.

 

The look in your eyes has me feeling uneasy, I don’t know why but you’re scaring me. There’s something inside that isn’t quite human; I’m running the code but I can’t shut you off. I’m going to explode if you don’t leave me alone. I’m going to explode.

Now listen carefully, this is important to you.

I think you might be a machine designed to kill me, I think you might be a machine. I think you might be a machine designed to kill me you never can tell these are dangerous days. The look in your eyes, has me feeling uneasy, I don’t know why but you’re scaring me.

 

Did you think you were going crazy?

I constantly thought I was going crazy.

 

I think you might be a machine designed to kill me, I think you might be a machine.

 

 

4- negatives: overexposed.

 

There was demon in my brain and I just couldn’t beat it. There was a demon in my brain and I just had to feed it.

Repeat. Repeat. Repeated.

 

You are master of the situation. You have confidence in your own judgement because you are honest and dependable.

 

We speak in monochrome, monotone, I guess you could say we need it.

Repeat. Repeat. Repeated.

 

There was demon in my brain and I just couldn’t beat it. Repeat. Repeat. Repeated.

 

 

5- i:\> format i:/fs/udf

“There’s blood on the floor, be thankful not more, just get over here right now. Be who I need you to be.”

 

I try to erase you so first I erase me. Remove every trace and replace the memory. Replace the memory

 

I was trembling like a leaf and you could hardly breathe. I said, “You don’t know what you’re doing to me” and you could hardly breathe.

 

I folded a thousand cranes back in the city. Gave you one each day, so you’d never leave me. But they must have flown away, stolen like a kiss in the rain, because you don’t believe me.

 

I tried to erase you so first I erased me. Removed every trace and replaced the memory.

“Hi, I’m trying to reach you. I just need to say something to you. I just need you to stop ignoring my calls. Because we have nothing, you’re not afraid to be behaving like that. I just need to hear something from you.”

 

“I tried to erase you, so first I erased me. Removed every trace and replaced the memory.

I tried to erase you so first I erased me. Our memories are all fake, we can't keep our truth straight. Replaced your memory.

 

7- pulling the pin.

She invariably found herself in the stormy throes of violent fights over seeming trifles.

 

You said enough. I’m pulling the pin.

You set me off, I won’t let you in.

 

What made her so angry? She can’t remember now, but it must have been something really big because, by nature, she is very calm and composed.

 

 

9- stone.

 

If we just keep a straight face, no one needs to know.

Please keep breathing.

 

10- hoverboards.

 

You have nine messages. Message one: “Where’s Travis? I tried to call you but you weren’t home.”

 

“Big guy, hey”

 

“Alright fine, just leave. Don’t me where you are going. I don't care, whatever. Asshole.”

 

Message four. “Hey Travis, this is Jake and it’s Tuesday night about 10:20 and I would really appreciate it if you would just give me a call back.

 

I like myself. I’m working hard to improve myself, to be stronger.

 

‘If you had your wish, what would you want most?”

 

“How long does this go on for?”

“It’s been going on for quite a while.”

 

Uh, my number, actually I’m only going to be at this number tonight. If you could just please give me a call back I would appreciate it. Talk to you later, bye”

 

“I am so jazzed to be able show you how I’ve managed to really get my life on track.”

 

Tuesday, 10:19 AM: “Hey Travis, I'm calling about your TV for sale. My name is Julia and my phone number is 543 4359. Talk to you soon. Alright. Bye.”

 

“Why don't we make it. I’m ready, I’m here. So, let’s make the future.“

 

 

11- salt.

 

“Could you take a minute, if you’re still in it, to breath slow and breathe long. You can’t sleep. but that’s every night.”

 

You can’t fix me, I know, but I appreciate you trying.

 

“Could you take a minute, if you’re still in it, to breath slow and breathe long. It’s alright. You’ll be alright. You will be alright”

 

 

13- tidal wave.

 

How’d you end up such a mess, dancing in the dark with your foolish friends? I'm thinking, “Nothing you say is real to me, but tell me a story. I want to believe. I’ll be anything you need.”

 

How’d you end up in such a mess, screaming on a lawn like some lunatic? Wash it all away in a tidal wave.

 

How’d you end up such a mess? Don’t you how to let it go?

It’s not a surprise it happens all of the time.I told you ten years ago, when were still kids, but you hit the road. Now you’re back, you ask yourself, “How’d we end up in Hollywood?”

 

When I heard what you’d done, my knees gave way, or maybe the earth it started to shake, I knew one day you'd be pulling away. Wash to it all away, tidal wave.

Travis, these are my takes on what you wrote down. There’s eight of ‘em.

 

You’re mixing your metaphors, drinking in semaphore and waiting for meaning like a teenage believer, an underachiever. You are not who I need you to be.

Wah’Kon-Tah, Ne-kah-e-se-y.

 

I guess I am not what you live for. You don’t need me to keep you warm. I knew one day you’d be pulling away.

How’d we end up in Hollywood?

Wah-hrah-lum-pah, Wah-hrah-lum-pah, Wah-sha-she, Wah-sha-she.

 

Wash it all away, tidal wave.

 

 

14- relaxed.

When you finish listening to this recording you will be more relaxed than you have ever been. Let a good and pleasant feeling now being to move, all across your body. All of your cares and tensions are just fading away.

 

15- now, we just sleep.

 

We used to always be in the same room, We used to be up all night. We used to be the life of the party. We used to be up all night.

 

We used to be. Now we just sleep.

 

We used to build forts in my room, We used to be the avenue kings.

We used never be tired or lonely. We used to think we had so much time.

 

We used to be.

“If i had a dollar, I’d give you most of my dollar.”

Now we just sleep.

 

We used to dream of possible things and every day we’d see first light.

We used to be the life of the party. We used to be.

“If I had a dollar, I’d give you most of my dollar.”

We used to be. Now we just sleep.

 

 

16- rare people (you’re a great guy).

 

“It was great talking to you a couple weeks ago. It was a couple weeks ago that we talked, two weeks already. And I’m calling you here again a couple weeks later, you know, to check in with you and see how you’re doing and give you a little encouragement.

 

I want you to know that you are a really great guy and I want you to be happy. And I want you to enjoy life and smile and, and feel good about yourself. I don’t want you to have problems. I don’t want you to struggle. I don’t want you to get depressed. I don’t want you to have misery. You, of all people, do not need that.”

 

You’ve got a way about you, that makes it impossible to breathe. You gave me everything I needed, but then I needed you you to see: you’ve got a way about you, makes it impossible for me to breathe. It's just this thing you always do and my love, you are killing me.

“You deserve to be loved. You deserve to be treated with respect. And you deserve to be treated with great honor. You’re one of the finest people I’ve ever known. You’re smart and you’re strong and you have a heart of gold. You’re one in a million. You’re one in ten million. You’re in a hundred million! That’s how great and rare you really are.”

 

You’ve got a way about you that makes it impossible for me to breathe. Sometimes the perfect day falls on you like an autumn leaf. Come night it slips away, for you to love not to keep.

One day when you look into that sky I know you’ll think of me, dream of running wild on what we used to be. What happened to the one we used to be? What happened to the one you used to be?

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